Categories
Poetry

beingme (poetry)

tryinanddfindinandtryinandlosinbutsallokayevenpeachyasalliknowiswhatidontknowandiembraceitbecausewhatelseistheretodofearitthatwouldbestupidinaccuratemeaninglessohfortheretobeahopethatwasrealisticarealitythatcouldberealarealthatiwouldwantembraceandchaseandloveandnowiknowthosethingsithoughtididn’tknowbutwasjustooscaredortoostupidortoomuchofjustamotherfuckertoreallyknowreallyunderstandreallyembracereallycarereallyfeelreallylovemydownfallismyselfiamthebottleneckiamtheweaknessiamthefearbutisntthatokayevenbeautifulevenatypeoflovelyevenatypeofperfectioncantmyweaknessbemystregthasidontfearwhoimnotandacceptwhoiamandwhoiwasandwhoimbecomingandwhoiamandwhoiamwhychaseperfectionwhenwewillnevergetthereoreverworsewedoanddiscoverjusthowboringitisnonoletmebeflawedletmelovemyflawsletmehowlhowlatthemoonawwoooooootherearetimesforpeacebutthentherearetimesforwarandmoregetsdoneinwarsoletmymindstayatwarthereisnopaxbarrettthereisonlynashguerreandichoosemywarwitheyesopenevenasasmilebecausewhatiswarexcepttheultimatetestwiththepleasurethatmywarisnotagainstotherpeoplewhoiwouldhurtandhurtisasininthebibleofmyheartnothiswarisonlyagainstmyselfandmyweaknessandmyflawsandimbarenuckledthermonucleartryingtobethebestversionofmyselfacknowledingthattheweaponsthatmayletmebeassymetricalaren’tmebeingperfectnoitsmyflawsthemselvesificanjustbehonestwithmyselfjustenoughthenwiththosethingsthatusedtokeepmeupatnighthatingmyselftheywillbethethingsthatletmewinletmewonderletmebethemeiwanttobeandcanbeandamifonlyisayyesyes

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *